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A Matter of Consecutive Moments

I wrote this on the first leg of a flight from Seattle to Columbus, Ohio, by way of Chicago. It was shortly after Matt and I found out that his mom’s heart had stopped and she was in a hospital in Columbus, in critical condition. Today, we are celebrating a miracle: she will be released from the hospital before the end of the week. Despite having no pulse for 20 minutes, she came out of her medically-induced coma and said, “I feel fine. Glad I got a pedicure.”  Writing has always been my way of coping. This post isn’t about food, or music. It’s about life. Because sometimes you have to throw life into whatever bucket happens to be open, and hope for the best.

Life is a matter of consecutive moments, and, cheesy as it sounds, Forrest Gump was right: it is like a box of chocolates. One moment you might be sitting in a cafe in Seattle, endulging yourself in a sugary breakfast and a latte, worrying about whether or not you’ll get a table at that restaurant you’ve been planning on visiting. Thinking about the day’s possibilities. Relishing the glow of vacation. And the next, you get a phone call that puts you on a plane to Columbus, Ohio, with no return ticket home.

In most circumstances, I tend to plan. Send out all of the appropriate emails, cancel all existing reservations, wash my hair, change my pants, pack snacks, charge my iPod. The stuff you tend to not think about when you are thousands of feet above the ground, suspended in time. I sent a brief email to my boss, telling him simply: I don’t know what to expect or when I will be back. I didn’t have time to fly home. I have, in my suitcase, four pairs of underwear, one pair of jeans, one pair of corduroy pants, one skirt, two sweaters, one leather jacket, one puffy jacket, two long-sleeved shirts, two pairs of flats, my hiking shoes, my phone charger and my makeup bag. All packed for Memorial Day weekend in the Pacific Northwest, for three days.

We stayed all day Saturday with my friend Mori from high school. We didn’t know what else to do, so we walked around. We went to look at the locks and drawbridges between the open ocean and the river. We went to a record store where Matt bought a tshirt. We went to a bar where we ordered two rounds of beers and I got drunk and started crying. Somewhere between telling Mori that he’s a true friend, and that I was scared for Matt. A blubbering mess. My mascara was running down my face at this bar in Seattle where, outside the sun shone, despite my persistent worries about the weather. The other day, at my birthday dinner, my dad said, you have always been a very strong person. I am trying to be that strong person, even though I tend to let Matt be a strong person these days.

I don’t know what will happen, though my gut tells me that Matt’s mom will pull through. I don’t know when I will be home, how I will get there, or what this means for tomorrow and the day after. But I know that tomorrow, and the day after, we’ll figure it out together. And the most important thing is this.

Posted by Kasey

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Kasey is the food editor and co-founder of Turntable Kitchen. She loves dark chocolate, warm crusty bread, and traveling to new places. She speaks Russian, but does not like vodka.

  • http://www.beyondtheplate.net/ Danielle

    Oh Kasey, I can only imagine how the news sent you guys into a tailspin! So glad to read that she’s recovering and feeling better. Hope that things are beginning to settle down for you. Take care and catch up soon! xo

  • http://www.turntablekitchen.com Kasey

    Danielle, thank you so much for your kind words and thoughtful note over the weekend. It means a lot! We are thankful that things turned out the way they did. I hope to see you soon, too. Big hugs.

  • http://prajwalk.wordpress.com/ Prajwal

    Hi Kasey. Sorry to hear about the news. Hope you are coping well, and also glad to hear that Matt’s mom is recovering. You are all in my thoughts. Praj

  • http://www.turntablekitchen.com Kasey

    Thank you so much, Praj! She’s doing well now, and we are all SO thankful for that. We both really appreciate the note. Hope to see you soon!

  • http://veryarbitrary.blogspot.com Brian

    I’ve been checking Turntable Kitchen everyday waiting for Matts latest post like a puppy waiting for it’s owner to come home from work. I knew something was up but I was hoping it was something far less serious and sobering.

    My heart goes out to you both and your family. Best wishes to Matts Mom on her road to recovery.

    Thank you for posting Kasey. Tell Matt his friend in Pittsburgh says hello :)

    -Brian Johnson

  • http://www.turntablekitchen.com Kasey

    Brian, thank you so much for your message – Matt has seen it and was very touched by it :) His mom is doing incredibly well–she is being released from the hospital! It’s truly a miracle. And don’t worry – we’ll be back with fresh posts this week :)

  • http://veryarbitrary.blogspot.com Brian

    Glad to hear the good news!

  • http://www.turntablekitchen.com Matthew

    Thanks so much for the kind words Brian. It means a lot to know that folks were looking forward to my return. I’m definitely looking forward to share some great new music now that my mom is home and recovering. After my mom was awake and fully on the path to recovery, my brother convinced me to take a little break and hit a place that sold used records while I was in Ohio. As a result, I have a lot of new LPs I’m excited to listen to and eventually share.

  • Chez Us

    Have been watching for updates since you headed back. So happy to hear that Matt’s mother is making a recovery. Our thoughts are with you all, every step of the way!

  • http://www.turntablekitchen.com Kasey

    Denise, you are so sweet. Thank you so much for your tweets and comments! We are very, very thankful. And really appreciate support of lovely friends and family. Hope to see you soon!

  • Steph

    Praj was right, Kase- this is an amazing post. I’m SO glad she’s recovering well.

  • http://www.turntablekitchen.com Kasey

    Aww, thanks Steph! And thank you for the super sweet card. It was so great to see you last weekend!!

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